Turning Down A Guy Has Never Been So Painful.

It’s 6:34 in the morning and am sipping on my ginger_lemon_honey tea. I am tired from a morning walk that l do every week day at half five…healthy living people! As if this is not enough to be going through on a Tuesday morning l have a boy on my case. I know this guy…he has been pursuing me for a long time, like a really long time and within that long time I have never been able to love him back. 

It obviously sucks for the guy (well, l think) but it really sucked hard for me last night when the’subject’ was brought up during our chats and l had to be brutally honest and this time tell him upfront that l don’t love him…l see him as a brother LOL! I’m kidding, l had to tell him though that l don’t feel the same and that he has to move on. I can’t really tell you what l said but it had to with him moving on because he has been after me for years ( yes!) and l haven’t’budged’ and with the look of things..l won’t. 

I have turned down guys before and it  has turned out just fine…but this time it pained me because the guy said things. Things that really got me boiling and shivering lol. So l was both pained and angry. Amongst the things he said was ” Thank you soo much, for showing me how foolish l am. Pursuing you for all these years magents…” Now that l am over it… it’s a funny message. First off, I didn’t think he was foolish…in whatever way and l don’t appreciate that he discovers his’foolishness’ through me. I’m still saying I don’t see him as a fool, but for him to see his own ‘foolishness’ that l happen not to see through me is offensive. 

He pursued me…all on his own. And he had the chance to move on from the times l told him to do it before but NO the love was hard to ignore and it has now come to a stage where he understands that l don’t share the same feelings but we have some tension between us which was not necessary but oh well! 

This has been a very rare and uncomfortable situationfor me…mele kuyalwane kuhle kudlule lokhu. Back to my tea…HAPPY TUESDAY.